Recovering Me: Healing After Narcissistic Abuse

3 Key Takeaways Numbness is a Biological Shield, Not a Broken Heart You Cannot "Think" Your Way Out of a Shutdown 3Small Somatic "Yeses" Build the Bridge Back to Self I never realized that feeling emotionally numb was actually my brain trying to protect me from the sheer volume of pain I was carrying. At first, I thought something was wrong with me—that I had simply "broken" after years of walking on eggshells—but what I discovered changed everything. This internal void isn't a lack of feeling; it is a sophisticated biological shield. Once I understood the mechanics of this silent protective layer, I finally saw a path back to my true self. THE SILENT SHADOW There was a Tuesday afternoon, months after I had finally left, where I sat in a sun-drenched park and felt... absolutely nothing. The birds were singing, the grass was a vibrant, mocking green, and yet I felt like I was watching the world through a thick pane of plexiglass. I tried t...

  The Heart of The Soojz Project The Soojz Project was founded on the principle that your peace is the foundation of your power. For years, many of us were taught that "strength" meant enduring chaos and absorbing the impact of others. We used "busyness" and "utility" to justify our existence. Sound: My album, Heavy Bamboo Rain , uses 528Hz frequencies to create a "sonic boundary." It helps you transition from the "bracing" state of survival into the "resting" state of peace. Insight: Through Recovering Me , we dismantle the lie that you are responsible for managing the emotions of the people who hurt you. Action: My coloring affirmations book, Speak Love to Yourself , is a tactile practice in self-protection. When you color, you are creating a "private sanctuary" where no one else's opinion matters. Protecting your peace isn't "selfish"; it's the only way to ensure you have enough light to ...

  The Heart of The Soojz Project The Soojz Project is about finding your natural frequency in a world that demands high-voltage noise. For a long time, many of us were "professional shock absorbers," absorbing the chaotic energy of others and reflecting it back in our hurried speech, over-explaining, and anxious movements. We thought being "fast" made us "safe." Sound: My album, Heavy Bamboo Rain , features the Daegeum . This flute requires a slow, intentional, and pressurized breath to produce its resonant 528Hz tone . It is a literal masterclass in the power of the slow exhale. You cannot rush the Daegeum, and you can no longer rush yourself. Insight: Through Recovering Me , we dismantle the corporate and narcissistic lie that "fast" equals "efficient" or "authoritative." Action: My coloring affirmations book, Speak Love to Yourself , encourages the slow, tactile movement of the hand. This reinforces the brain’s ability ...

  The Heart of The Soojz Project The Soojz Project is built on the belief that we attract what we resonate with. When we are stuck in "Internal Static"—the leftover noise of gaslighting and hyper-vigilance —we inadvertently align with chaos because it matches our internal state. Healing is the process of clearing that static so we can finally hear, and respond to, the melody of a healthy connection. Sound: My album, Heavy Bamboo Rain , uses 528Hz frequencies to help you move out of the "bracing" state. When you aren't constantly bracing for impact, you can actually feel the warmth of a safe person. Insight: Through Recovering Me , we deconstruct the " Trauma Bond " so you can recognize the quiet, steady nature of true respect. Action: My coloring affirmations book, Speak Love to Yourself , is a tool for self-connection. The healthier your relationship is with yourself, the more naturally you will attract health in others. Healthy love doesn't ...

The Heart of The Soojz Project The Soojz Project was created to help you navigate the " Internal Static " that makes silence feel like a threat. For many of us, the noise of a high-pressure life—whether it was the demands of a high-stakes corporate career or the constant management of a toxic partner—served as a distraction from a deep-seated fear of being alone . We performed, produced, and stayed busy because the silence felt like a vacuum that would eventually swallow us whole. This project exists to bridge that gap. We don't just "talk" about healing; we use somatic tools to rewire the connection between your body and your brain, allowing you to inhabit your own truth without needing a spreadsheet to justify it. Sound: My album, Heavy Bamboo Rain , uses 528Hz frequencies to clear the mental noise so you can finally hear your own frequency. Insight: Through Recovering Me , we dismantle the corporate and narcissistic lies that told you your value was tie...