Recovering Me: Healing After Narcissistic Abuse

  The Heart of The Soojz Project I started The Soojz Project because I realized that my "success" was actually a survival strategy. I was performing for an audience that was never going to give me a standing ovation. For years, I believed that if I could just produce enough, fix enough, and be "perfect" enough, I would finally be safe. This project is the sanctuary for your "un-performance": Sound: My album, Heavy Bamboo Rain , uses 528Hz frequencies to bypass the "achiever" brain and speak directly to the soul. It’s music that doesn't ask you to do anything but exist. Insight: Through Recovering Me , we dismantle the lie that you have to "earn" your place in a relationship. Action: My coloring affirmations book, Speak Love to Yourself , is a low-pressure practice in being. You aren't coloring to win; you are coloring to be present. You were never meant to be a resource; you were always meant to be a person. 🕊️🌿 The ...

  The Heart of The Soojz Project The Soojz Project was created to bridge the gap between "knowing" you are safe and actually "feeling" safe. For many of us, our value was long tied to how much pressure we could absorb and how well we could brace for the next impact. When that impact finally stops, the nervous system doesn't always know how to transition into peace. This project is the map I used to find my way: Sound: My album, Heavy Bamboo Rain , uses the 528Hz frequency to signal to your body that the "war" is over. It creates a literal soundscape of safety. Insight: Through Recovering Me , we dismantle the belief that you have to "earn" the right to be at peace. Action: My coloring affirmations book, Speak Love to Yourself , is a low-stakes way to practice being in a safe, creative flow without fear of judgment. Peace isn't a trap; it’s the reward for every battle you’ve already won. 🕊️🌿 If safety feels strange today, just breat...

  The Heart of The Soojz Project The Soojz Project was created to bridge the gap between "knowing" you are safe and actually "feeling" safe. For many of us, our value was long tied to how much pressure we could absorb and how well we could brace for the next impact. When that impact finally stops, the nervous system doesn't always know how to transition into peace. It wasn't until I picked up my Daegeum and started creating that I realized my instincts weren't broken—they were just buried under layers of someone else's noise. Sound: My album, Heavy Bamboo Rain , uses 528Hz frequencies to clear that "mental static" so you can finally hear the quiet whisper of your own truth. Insight: Through Recovering Me , we dismantle the lies that made you doubt your own eyes and ears. Action: My coloring affirmations book, Speak Love to Yourself , is a training ground for intuition. Every color you choose is a small, safe practice in trusting your ...

The Heart of The Soojz Project The Soojz Project was created to bridge the gap between "knowing" you are safe and actually "feeling" safe. For many of us, our value was long tied to how much pressure we could absorb and how well we could brace for the next impact. When that impact finally stops, the nervous system doesn't always know how to transition into peace. But after the Australian Human Rights Commission accepted my case, I had a realization: I didn't want to win the war; I wanted to leave the battlefield. Walking away emotional strength is the hardest thing I’ve ever practiced, but it’s the only thing that actually set me free. Sound: My album, Heavy Bamboo Rain , was recorded in the silence that followed my exit. The 528Hz frequency helped me sit in that quiet without feeling the "itch" to go back and defend myself. Insight: Through Recovering Me , I share how I dismantled the "Performer" within myself. Action: My coloring...